Schizophrenia / Mad About It

Is there some normal reason I cant sleep? Of course not. I've had two bad schizophrenia days in a row. So I used to take respiridone, but now I'm on Abilify (the max dose). I stopped taking respiridone because I rear ended someone and have no recollection of how it actually happened. I basically blacked out. On that medication I was a zombie and would never fully wake up every day. I thought my husband was going to leave me. I would rarely even get out of bed and I had stopped driving, but that day I only had to drive a couple of blocks and it was to see my doctor. Well, I didn't even make it one block from my house. I just started driving again a couple of weeks ago. Abilify has significantly improved my ability to think...on most days. If I could only up the dosage a little more it would be perfect. So instead the doctor prescribed me 1 mg of respiridone to take with it. What!?!? I spent 2 months withdrawing from that crap. Do they even listen? Or care? I will not go down that road again. I would rather just be crazy 20 percent of the time. At least then I have mostly moments of clarity. So because of all this I am laying in bed having episodes of madness (psychosis). I am literally seeing shadows on the walls. I cant stop thinking about it. Therefore no sleep for me. What a pity.